3 down..1 more to go...

Meh....finally done with PAC 2331 Pharmacy Practise....arh man...wrote so much...my hand was so stiff and numb during the 3 hour exam.Questions were so stupid! This was actually the only Exam that I haven't actually studied fo in my entired life....and the stuff that I;ve actully studied, wasn't even on it...=S So what I did was to BS for 3 hours.....the abbreviations were weird too, I am glad I didn't actually go over every single one..."SOB"= Shortness Of Breathe? ( I had a friend saying that it is "Son Of a B**ch" )...."BS" = Bowel Sound? ( Sounds like "Bulls**t" to me)...Oh dear...-.-"

Glad it is all over...

Last and Next on the list is : PAC 2151 Biochem

Helen: "he..hehehe..this is really clever, this molecule can go into the cell cycle blablabla....isn't it beautiful"

Somebuddy save me pls -.-
I am so dead in this last exam...It's not that the subject is hard-hard...Its more like her paper is too unpredictable. She spent 20 min in the lecture talking about supramolecule and after that I STILL don;t know what on earth they are -.-"

Holiday holiday...where art thou?

Stay positive everybuddy!
It will be over in 4 days...which is roughly 4*24 hours = 4*24 *60 min = 4*24*60*60 seconds = 345600 seconds?! WHAT? no..this figure doesn't look appealling...nvm, we shall stick with 4 days...

xX-amzz

I guess I can always find reasons ( or excuses ) not to do my blog and personal diary...I am THAT lazy...well...the fact is, I had been busy...as you all know =P EXAMS!!

2 down....2 to go...Tomorrow is 2331 Pharmacy Practise...totally rubbish...I don;t know how to study for it at all =[ Only started studying yesterday, and did less than half when I realised that I really can;t be bother. Attempted to watch a scary movie " A tale of two sister " (Korean) and ended up hiding under the blanket for two hours...Yup...as usual, I missed 90% of the movie.

And today...I had tried, again to wake up earlier to study...attempted to wake up at 8am but ended up waking up at 12:05pm...Poor alarm, I think I had torture it enough...battery is out too (again) coz i had been pressing Snooze for SOOO many times...

I don't wanna study....
I want holiday....

I have friends that said I;ve changed...One said yesterday that I seem less stressed before and after exam...and i seem more positvie..Really? Oh, I don't think you would say so if you were sitting in my car before and after exam...ROAD RAGGGGGGGE..."Get off the road dude....stupid tram...ARGH i can't change lane"

*sneeze* oh pls don't tell me I am getting sick...

Or maybe I've changed?

But I really cbs anymore...I WANT HOLIDAY!!! and 4 weeks holiday is NOT ENOUGH!!! I wanna go shopping go resting go watch movie go playing go singing go sewing go doing art work go play music go dating go badminton goooo anywhere as long as I can forget about study...just relax and have fun...HEY GUYS! lets catch up in holiday!! yeh WE!! ALL!!! lets...go shopping...well, window shopping if i am broke...and go...argh i miss the beach...too cold now right? hmm...then we'll think of something!! * The DREAMING * ( NOT that one in Rural lecture! )

I shall focus...shall I?
SO....its study time now?

o..kay... =[

"Think of exams as motivation" Thats what I said to shirly WSS yesterday...then for me...the motivation is HOLIDAY...

We're half way there~~

Good luck everybuddy!

Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone I
'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
Its a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh 'Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

May...

Omg..it's May already...nearly half way through the year...!! Weather had been reali weird lately...and so was my mood.

..and i know...i had been abandoning my blog lately...

SO many essayzz to write..and assignment..and tests =[
I can't wait till the next holiday~! ..in 2 months time!!

I had been changing my study method this year...that includes skipping lectures...no i am not wagging =P, i catch up my lectures right after lectopia is up~ It does allow me more time to rest...1.5 hours to uni in the morning is just...grrr
( How are you, my fellow vcp fds? I haven;t been seeing you guys for...a while =P )

Sent in my old bomb to service...sigh...apparently the brakes are all worn out...not the patch work would last a while but I shall start looking for a new car soon. Hate it when dad started to yell at me...it's not my fault!! I just don't have time for it...and insurance will shoot up after i get a new car ( complimentary insurance, not 3rd party anymore)...maybe i shall worry about that later!

Just caught up on today's lecture...

I want food...dessert!!

Ok I am going to uni tomorrow =] I will~ maybe not thursday =P

...you're getting all kind of impatient...waiting...we live and we learn to take...

Great Ocean Road

Easter Break i now coming to an end...I have no idea what I;ve done so far~! seriously! lol...not productive at all! But the hightlight of it would definitely be my first day trip EVER!!! ( since I came to Melbourne...)

We left home at 8ish on Thursday and reached Geelong at 9:30am...not too bad! That was quicker than we expected. TO be honest, I didn't really had a clue of where we were heading exactly...I thought we were going to take the ferry and then drive back from mornington...oh well~ sometimes you dont; have to be fully planned to have fun =] Afetr visiting the information center there, we decided to drive onto the Great Ocean Road...[look at photos from above] ..Long day and it was a 600km drive in a day...Thanks mel! for giving us direction to the gas station in Geelong!! Was a great day out!

Oh...please let me enjoy my last day of holiday...or maybe I shall do something more productive!!! like...catching on some of my lectures...-.-"

Easter Saturday

Oh dear! I swear, if it is so busy everytime i work...I would break down very soon.

Pharmacy was closed yesterday, maybe that explained why it was EXTRA SUPA MEGA busy today...Overtimed for 25 minutes too...and no i don't get paid for it =S

Duno if it is the flu going around in aunt's house or just coz i was totally worn out today...I am starting to get sick now...again =S how annoying this is...and no, i am absolutely NON-ADHERENCE to my medicines. I take them when I remember, I take them when I feel like it...don't remind me what course I am doing, coz that doesn;t help ME at all.

Another failure on the attempting to make a chocolate mousse cake.
That's how terrible I am at cooking...and baking =[

IT WAS ONLY CAKE-MIX!!! HOW COULD I STILL STUFF IT UP??!

Oh well, I've alwasy know I am not born for cooking...

I;ve dne absolutely NOTHING so far in my easter holiday...

Work, Work, and work,,,
today 7 hours...
tomorrow 4 hours,
monday another 7 hours...

not that I am complaining...(maybe I am, just a little bit)
...its true that I should be happy having a job...

but sometimes I want my break too...

Oh well, its holiday...
be happy, don't worry!

Japanese dinner tomorrow!! can't wait!!

Busy week ahead!

Last week before Easter holiday!!

Aiks, stupid Biochemistry test...I don't even know what I've learnt so far, how am I going to pass it -.-"....then there is this lame essay to hand in for Communication tutorial...that i am done=]...n then is Cell function-Immuno tech prac report...I shall start it after my test.

Gees, 2nd year is not easy.

I am running out of time for everything =[

Ohh, after 9 days, my plant finally grow! I can't help but keep poking it! so cute =3...Lets hope I won't kill it...I have to admit I am very bad at taking care of 'living things'...

And yesterday me and Andi went to IKEA, it was a stupidly stupid day with pouring rain and thunder...we were shivering an crying...and no sbout by the time i got home I was ALL WET..from top to bottom.

BUT...look what I've got!! =] Now, after years...(yeah i am serious)...I have something to hang my crystal bracelets instead of throwing them in a glass bowl! Yeah, I have a lot...started to wear some of them since 8 years ago...and everytime I went into a crystal shop, I ended up getting another one...now I realised most of them are not in such good quality =[ cheap ones la...NOW! start to focus on QUALITY, not QUANTITY anymore! ( thats why I just spend heaps on another new Clear Quartz afer i scratched my tiny old one 5 years ago)..i need to get myself a dark one like smoky quartz or Black Agate..hmmm,,,I can;t help it >.<>

Happy Birthday?

Thanks daddy,,,

I think it is one of the very very few moment that he actually called up and wish me a Happy Birthday. But guess what, not even I myself know its my birthday....Chinese calender...such complex system.

Wouldn't say its a very nice day today...

Woke up ay 7:10am...n in 20 minute i got dressed, cleaned my face and brushed my teeth, pack my lunch n uni stuff, did my make up...yeah i am that quick...=P n then ran to the bus stop, as usual, with heels.

Meeting from 9am-9:30am...studied in the library...sort out some club issues...library workshop at 11am to noon...lunch n then 4 hours lectures straight. Plus bits n pieces happened...Just dont; think I handled everything that well today. Kinda exhausted and depressed by the time I got home. What a birthday. and my coffee made me feel weird.

I am so behind....and there is a test coming up....2 tests...

ok i am not turning apple into orange....

just let me catch my breathe....

But M@P BBQ yesterday was good =]

Good effort everyone! and Thanks for helping out!

Rehearsal next wednesday!

"Marry Me?"

On tram 109 today, that's what I saw when I looked out of the window.

Up the clear blue sky, it was written " marry me?"

This is one of the sweetest ( and one of the most expensive I'd say ) proposal I've ever seen!

Candle light dinner, flowers, then ring...thats like the most classical proposal in history! C'on guys! Need to be more creative!Its not that I am saying all guys should proposal up the sky, spending a fortune etc.. Material wealth doesn't come first, it never does...but try make that one of the most unforgetable and sweetest moment in you and your partner's life! make it special and unique...and as long as it comes from the heart, thats whats the most important.

I wonder if he's made it? I was talking to my friend and we were saying, the engagment ring must be huge...OR maybe he's spent all his money getting his proposal up the sky...no more ring =P

But either way, I still think she is a lucky girl. Having someone who is telling the whole world how much he loves her. I wish them both all the best!

and of course, congratulations!

Friday tomorrow!! yeah! and today's Commuication tutorial was SO FUN...I had to act as an non-engish-speaking-girl who has low BP and is about to faint and has no idea what my medication is...."You...chinese?...me..no speak..english"....can;t wait till the next tute! LOL

P.S.: I still think I am the luckiest girl...=]

Wisdom teeth?

I've always said I am not smart enough to have wisdom teeth!
Now I would say I am not smart enough for the teeth to grow painlessly and normally...

My tooth is hurting...or maybe its my gum...I can't tell anymore =S

Yeah and I skipped my last lecture...way too cold in the lecture hall and there's no way I could stand it!

Can't they just fix the stupid air con?
Basically when it is hot outside it would be bloody freezing in the lecture...
When it is icy cold outside then it would be a boiling inside the hall...
Too extreme!

Gota catch up on the Protein lecture that I missed tonight!
So sleepy already~!
Plus I never seem to understand anything about the protein lectures...

I want my weekend!
Seems like it is the only thing I am looking forward to!

Sunshine after the rain

I have to admit I am someone who thinks a lot...*in a bad way*

..and finally when I couln't take all little annoying 'troubles' around me...
they piled up...and eventually...It was suffocating.

I re-read my personal diary, and started to realised it was simply me, myself, who is worrying too much. Everything wasnt as bad as I had thought; and yes I over-reacted in everything.

I had always tried to be that best daughter in the family, that best student in class...tried to be the best. Was it the expectation from others? or from myself? I didn;t know.

I realise what they want me to be, and who i really am..is just, a different person.

I am sorry , mum and dad; I am still that very stubborn daughter with bad temper who cries all the time. I've tried to be that traditional-chinese-good-manner-lady-ladish-daughter you guys wanted me to be; yet i couldn't help jumping around like an idiot or crying my head off sometimes....well, most of the time. But that is who I really am.
I am sorry, sis; I am still learning how to be a good elder sister who knows the best for you and talks to you in an non-aggresive manner. But I am learning, to be patient and caring; just give me some more time.
I am sorry, teachers; I am not your top student who you had always thought i am. But I always give my best shot and I never regret for no studying harder.
I am sorry, aunt and uncle; I know you guys worry about me especially when I am home late...I really tried and I am stll trying very hard not to cause any worries and troubles. But sometimes I just want a little getaway. I believe I am old enough to know what I am doing.

It is time for me to make some decisions for myself now.
I don't want to be the best,
but myself.
I am not perfect, i am not the top.
So, just get over it.

What do I have now?
-I have my family who are still willing to support me and my study.
-I am in Pharmacy...even though it is such a tough course...I realise a part of me is really enjoying it. Working with costomers and patients...youngs and olds...It is just such a big reward when they say "Oh hey! you're working today! how are you? Thanks so much for your help... hope you have a nice day too...see you next time!...take care...", with that genuine smile. And that old man coming in on Sunday...saying "young lady you have a beautiful smile"...He, and all of them, really brighten up my days, even when it is a depressing day for me deep down.
-I have my club...still can't believe it all started with just a joke...but from handing in the applications in starting a new club...to our first meeting...first rehearsals...first performance...to now 2009, everyone is working so hard and are so committed. I am so proud, of everyone and so thankful, that M@P had really taken off beautifully.
-I have my good girlfriends whom i've met since high school...and uni...and even work...that are always willing to hang out with me, muck around about hot and cute guys... relationships... uni...work...gossips...most importantly, they are caring and always happy to give me this super mega warm hug whenever I need.
-I have my cool guy-buddies who always try their best to cheer me up when I am down, even when I normally spend most of my time mucking around, teasing them and being evil....those who laid their trust on me and share their problems with me...I really appreciate it.
-And of course, I have a stable and sweet relationship which I have no reason to have doubts in. A person who i can always turn to...who is always here for me...who really cares for me and know how to guide me back on track. Our memories had been beautiful, and I am sure there are lot more to come. He is everything I've ever wanted. And I should stop worrying and having so much doubt on myself which had been driving me nuts. Back to basics. Faith.

My life is not perfect, nor me.
But think about it, I have eveything I've ever dreamt of. My course, my career, my friends and my relationship.
Why would I ask for more?
I am content.
Seriously.

It had always been me, and myself...
Problems that I can only solve by myself.
Time to really step out of my own circle and think from the outside.
Clear my mind...and save some space for something more practical, instead of spending my time stressing, worrying and over-thinking...

Serotonin reuptake inhibitos are definitely not something I need now.
If it was two days ago, I would be so desperated for it.
But...I've found my own happiness, I've always have it...
I have the person I need.
I have everything I need in my life.
And I am thankful, very thankful indeed.

There are so much more to learn in life...
let me take one step at a time.

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life you have a thousand reaons to smile"

'Get to know yourself better'

Here's some interesting results from a 'personalities test'
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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eh....interesting...=]
Kinda true but ...thats is not what i am most afraid of....

Yeh Friday !! =]

-

I think i....am lost

Stuffing runny nose...
Still on Pseudoephedrine + Chlorpheniramine...
Still causing drowiness...

Still can't focus in lecture...
I have no idea what they are on about...
catching up catching up...
the only thing that i am glad is,,,
there's something called "Lectopia"

Don't want to talk about food...
I hate diet, I could never be on a diet...
but now it just comes naturally -.-"

Toothache...
I really should have visited the dentist when I was back in china...
another reason why I don;t seem to be attracted to food.

They are out there fighting about the phone bill again...

I want to get away from all these...

Study VS Beach

2nd week of uni...
I've had enough...
Trying to catch up on lectures,
but they just make me sleepy and tired...

Loss of appetite for i-duno-how-many-days,
Cold for 3 days...
Current medications include: Paracetamol, Chlorpheniramine, Pseudoephedrine ( alternatively Phenylephrine)
Common Side effects experiencing: Chlorpheniramine(sedating antihistamine)-drowiness *yawn*

Maybe they should have an ancillary label number 1b: This medicine may cause drowsiness and may increase boredom in lectures. If affected, do not study or think; just sleep your head off.

I want my weekend ...

Stuff yet to be done:
1>catch up on i-duno-wt-it-is-all-about lecture PAC 2171...Say hello to GPCR and cAMP...RTKs and Ras....
2>catch up on M@P bbq
3>catch up on i-duno-what lectures
4>iron my shirt if i remember..or maybe i will iron it when i want to wear it...
5>Get a 250GB harddrive that can plug diretly into my brain so i don't need to worry about memorising things =S
6>fix myself if i remember

Went to St kilda with my vcp girls today!
Finally could get away from study for a while...
Summer is gone already right?
So no more tanning for me!

New start...or back to routine?

It has been a while since I last updated my blog.

Holiday had been okok...back to parents, went to Europe for trip...I had been longing to come back to Melbourne...and here i am, with 2nd year Pharmacy started...

First day of uni, 830am lecture...it was too tiring...

Everything seems to be...slightly different...
Wasn't a really great feeling,
so not used to it...

From holiday back to uni...
From sleeping in everyday to waking up at 6am...
From spending time mucking around and not worrying about work, to now with all these work staring to stack up....

I miss holiday...every bits and pieces of it....

I am not ready for it yet,
if..and only if...i have more time...