CRAMZ

These are the things i would start doing at 11:30am TODAY ( 5 more minute =[ ):
1) Go through Pharm Chem
2) Study Pharm Chem
3) CRAM Pharm Chem

I wish these two chemstry exams can be over soon coz apparently they are stressed me out completely. It seems that I don't know anything at all.

As for my incomplete crossword puzzle that had been sitting there and seems to be taking me a while to finish, I think I can complete the missing part one day.
But for now, I have decided to leave it aside for a while until at least Pharm Chem and Med Chem exams are over first; then I will get back to it and start filling the missing words again.

I will just do my bes and see what all these would lead me to....coz at least I know I've done my best and I won't regret it..At least I will try to study and cram as hard as i can today ....and hopefully I will pass my exams!

Aww...exams are depressing!

稻香

詞：周杰倫　曲：周杰倫
編曲：micel Lin

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡　隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑　小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑　鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧　回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄　就像我說的
追不到的夢想　換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色　先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧　功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機　現在終於飛回我手裡

所謂的那快樂　赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了　誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦　哦　午後吉他在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦　哦　陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡　隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑　小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑　鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧　回到最初的美好

One down, Three to go.

Finally got Pharmcy Practise exam done today!
Not really relieved, more like..."omg, pharm chem and med chem ae next, so screwed!" *more panic*

I haven't been waking up so early for so long! 6:30am o.0... I had been sleeping in late and waking up late; now 6:30 am .....argh. But its ok, since I didn;t have a nice sleep last night anyway; I had been waking up every hour to check the clock. Sleeples night it seems

Arrived to city at 7ish and finally got some Mcdonald for breaky. I had been having quite aneasy morning I would say, no really pancking.I even bumped around in Federation Square and checked out what th breast cancer day is all about. Yeah, I also felt good coz i did some charity today =] I got a pink ribbon and to be honest I am more than happen to donate even tho I dont; get anything in return; lets see if it had brought me luck =]

I met up with my fds in flinder like last semester. It was fun to chit chat around. I wasn;t really panicking until I got on the train seriously....then Andi n Shirly went crazy.."dont; look at u notes now uisa, the more u read, the more u forget...THE MORE YOU STUDY, THE MORE YOU FORGET...muhhaha"...and with their super junior dance, it drove me nuts. But thx, girls, u all made me laff so much.

Decided not to go home straight after exam, not to take the train to boxhill then bus back to doncasater, not to take the tram down swanston ...just want to bump around alone and get things sorted ur in my head; sorta just want to get lost in some street and find something new. Too bad i don't have much cash, and with only $7.65 in my d. card. This is just not a nice day to shop. Kicking Pharm Prac and leaving an empty brain ( trying to empty it) for stupid Pharm Chem. I swear,the 2 chemistry subjects are driving me crazy! I am so gona relax after the 2 chem exams....WHO CARES ABOUT PHYSIOLOGY?!

I look into the mysterious future with hope and, I found nothing but realising that...



....I WILL HAVE TO CRAM FREAKEN PHARM CHEM!

慌。

Today wasa busy Sunday to some extend in my pharmacy. So many prescriptions T^T

I am still not good at working under stress, coz aparently I stuffed up a few scripts today. Didn't prepare the Generic Amoxil syrup but instead the normal band; didn't print out labels properly...grrr...SORRY LARRY~! (even tho he won;t be reading this)...Seems that i;ve lost my brain. So tired. Good thing is that m pharmacist helped me out with my Medcine In Profile study for tomorrow's exam. His unique way of teaching me really helps me a lot. " Yeh, so tell me about aspirin, what is it? ...yeh..NSAIDs, then what are the side effects of NSAIDs?...no you tell me, i won;t just tell you the answer...ok, doxycline, tell me what u can't lie down after taking it? " THX LARRY! (again, he wont; be reading it but ijust want to shout it out)

Got home at 2:30pm after doin some lollie shopping for exams. Igot some sugar free lollies and also the yummy Glucojel-jellybean proudly manufactured by The Pharmacy Guild of Autralia. Now in tomorrow's exam if they ask me what The Guild does, i will put down "It manufactures Glucose Power JELLY BEANs!"

I hit y pillow right after I had some food, soooo worn out. And then when I woke up, its was like 5pm already....My heart is racing and this is not a nice feeling. 很慌乱的感觉...怎么办才好？心很不舒服Y。

Good Luck Vcp-ists, I will see yo guys tomorrow in exams =]

Don't Worry Be Happy

Exams? What exams?
oh.....E..X...A..M..S!

I had been studying Pharmacy Practise for the whole day, yet I don't know what had went into my brain. There are so much to stuff in: Psychology, Ethics, Organisations, Medicine In Profile, Probabilities, Statistic, Pharmacoepidemiology and research method, dispensing skills, patients care problm solving,rural pharmacy,compliance issue...Can you believe there are so much in just ONE subject?!

Its amazed how a person's brain can stuff in SO many stuff.

I am not panicking now yet...still in me "lalala don't worry" mood.
This semster had been so weird for me, I dont; know what I;ve learnt and now they said its exam time! Feeling so unprepared.

Jia You everyone! We can make it through, alive. We are getting there and it will be over soon!

EXAMS T^T DIE HARD

Monday 27/10 : Pharmacy Practise ...is gay...
Wednesday 29/10: Pharmaceutical Chemistry ...is a bi*ch...
Friday 31/10: Medicinal Chemistry ...is screwed...
Then.....
Monday 10/11 : Physiology...is UNTOUCHED...

I duno how I am gona survive this semester...T^T how am i gona survive exams le?
so hard...especially those chemistry...i need to get 70%+....now its just a dream =[

One exam is goingo costme AUD 750 again!
Or maybe would say the total AUD 3000 is like action potential...It a "all or none event"
Sorry mammy and daddy =[

As usual, I get sick before exams; kinda annoying but I am used to it...
What annoyed me most is that Panadol is just dodgy =/
So sick of food all of a sudden, dont want to eat...infront of me now is this bowl of green leaves, tomato n kiwi...yet i can't finish it...Food makes me wanna vomit....omg -.-"""

Working from 5pm - 9pm today...maybe I should get neuofen instead...

Andi's birthday

Yesterday was my dear dear DEAREST friend ANDI's 20th birthday!!!yeah!

So lets start from the PREPARATION:

On the day before...which is monday,,, I baked a CAKE! okok! i cheated (shut up shirly!)...I used cake mix! BUT STILL!! its my first time ever bakin a cke WITHOUT the help of aunt =] As a pharmacy student, I know how to measure accurately LOL, and i swear the "preparing creams and mixure" lab class helped me a lot in bakin the cake this time...It turned out to be pretty ok actually. And most important I apply my dispensing label skill again HOHOHO

ON THE DAY (21st Oct):

We went to Oriental Spoon in La Trobe Street...A korean resturant sicne we know Andi wanted to eat korean food=] Its my 2nd time eain korean fod so far and I would say I like that resturant....We had a lot of fun WAITING for each other to decide what to eat -.-""""" but at the end we ordered 3 dishes and shared.

Then SURPRISE time!!! my <3>

After that we went to Kbox...and sang out heart out...hmm, lets do it some other time girls! It was just so much fun!!!

Btw, Mel looked SO differnt with dress n heels =P ( OKOK mel, i didnt post THAT photo up=P )

P.S.: Andi, you're a great friend! and i will always remember 14th Feb 2008, the day when we three meet each other =] (awww, how sweet...) Thank for beign there for me all teh time, standing by me ans support me. Now we hope you will have a great new journey ahead. We will be here by your side too =] Love ya heaps!

One Step At A Time-Jordin Sparks

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting
We live and we learn to take

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
When you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there
Is one step at a time

Take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

P.S. : This is one of the best songs EVER I've listened to ( Yeh I know I liek all kinda music! ). Great beats and rhythm; meaningful lyric and very uplifing! Two thumbs up! Hope you guys will enjoy it!

Shall we play this song in M@P next year =P?

A visit to my neighbour.

ok, this is the second post of today, but I really want to share this post to all my vcp druggies.

Just now I paid a visit to my neighbour, who is turning 96 years old in January 22nd (2009). His wife told me that he had an heart attack for the first time in his life a few weeks ago when he was away on a trip to his daughter's 70th bithday in Townsville. Now he is back in Melbourne after beign in hostipal for 3 weeks there.

So i decided to take some time and visit him today.

He seems pretty healthy, which is a good sign. And i am glad he is better now. He told me it had been an awful night for him when that happened. He was sent to Townsvlle hostpal and then was transfered to a cardiovascular specialist. He didn't have an operation but a lot of injections, which was terrible, he said. "and i had these insulin injections....for...i think my blood sugar level"

Then he showed me this calender pack for his medication. It comes in one week dose. Monday to Sunday; and is divied into " Morning. Lunch. Dinner. Bedtime" He said this is a brilliant idea coz all he had to do after is meal/before bed time is to get a glass of water, open that particular foil on the package according to the day and time, and take the meicines! { Guys! our adherence lecture :P }

"Well, you see, I am on 14.5 (FOURTEEN and A HALF) tablets each day. I have no idea what I had to take so many, it gets pretty confusing sometimes. I used to take Beta blockers too but now they discharged me with these other 10 medications. *sigh* its just too many tablets!..."

I turned to the back of the pack and realised he's on loop diuretic-frusemide, digoxin, aspirin, simvastatin and some other generic forms of blood pressure and cardiovascular medications. I felt sorry for him. Sometimes its very hard for an eldery having to take so many medications each day, not knowing what they are exactly.

I guess we all have to understand what they're going thro, and let them unerstand that "No matter how many medicines you're taking, even tho you're on a lot of medications, as long as they help you in you life, they make you feel better. Thats teh most important thing" (This is something I heard my pharamcist said one day when I was working)

Counsell them, provide them with the information they missed out on the medications. Be there for them, sometimes all an eldery wants is to have someone to talk to. Let them know that there are people here who cares for them.

They might be cases or things we heard in our pharmacy practise lecture; but when it comes to a real patients with real situations, it feels slightly different ( Thats what I feel anyway ).

Still 3 years to go IF i dont fail my exams this sem.

The linger I am in ths couse, the more I feel that I Am studying not because I want to please my relatives or parents; not because of the stable/flexible and highly respected career or the money that I will earn. (Maybe it will become more important when I hv my own family, but not for now). I study because I love it; I love to communicate with people and I want to do the best for them. It is not just my job and responsibility, but something I truly love to do.

A moment of deep thoughts.

Ohh, sorry guys AND GIRLS ( for those girls that are so pick and not allowing me to use 'guys'...), I haven't update my blog for two days or so...Not that I am that very busy, but I am just a bit lazy...besides, I had been workin quite a lot again. 7 hours yesterday, mann ! Glad it wasn;t as bad as last week!

My cousin from HK is back to Melbourne for a week! He is always the cousin I am closest to since I was young. He has great personalities. He used to teach me piano, till I cried...(not that he made me cry, but i was practising on my own till I was so tired that I cried -.- ); but he never plays now, guess coz he only had a few lessons. He used to sketch me, till I was so tired..."Don' move, its nearly done"....I really don't konw how much that picture looks like me=P But I guess since we are both growing up now, it's slightly different already. Afterall, I am still glad he comes back.

What makes him admirable is that he's engaged! to his very nice and caring fiancee now! They had been in a long run relationship for...8 years? ( i am takin a guess but I am sure it was since ages ago) Was really happy when i heard that news! Happy for them, finlly found their soulmate that they are going to spend the rest of their lives with. Another new journey ahead! Can't wait to attend their wedding!

Follow your feeling, believe in your heart and yourself! and I am sure one day we will all find that "special one". Someone who cares and loves you for who you are, and is willing to respct every aspect of your life; understands your need and provides you the feeling of security. Do not set yourself a "goal" ---a dream gf/bf, because you will restrict yourself eventually and miss out alot in your lives.
Learn from the past but never linger there; treasure the present, it is a gift ; look into the future with faith and hope, it is better that you think.
Learn to look at the same thing with different angle and you will find nothing is a total disaster. Step out of the little world of your own,and you will found there are so much around you that are beautiful, and yet you never seem to realise.
Don't take things for granted, because you will never know when they're all gone. And then you will realise how much it meant too u, when its already too late.
Never give up yourself; Nothing is really over yet unless you stop giving yourself a chance and stop trying.
Take a risk; life is too short do things that you KNOW you will regret for. But at least you've did your best when you are willing to give yourse a chance, and you have nothing to lose; and that you should be proud of yourself.
Follow your dream and work hard for what you want to achieve;Hard work will definitely be rewarded; the rest is to believe in yourself.
Have faith in your heart and people aroudn you; have hope for the futue that things will be better; and a peaceful soul to allow you to have a clear mind and find out what you really want in life.

No matter how much I want to stay like a kid, now I have to step out to the society as an adult.
I've learnt, and I grew from the past.
And now I believe tomorrow will be a better day.

So, no matter you are my dearest friends or jus visitors to this blog that we never met; believe in yourself. You are worth more than you think and we all have the ability to achieve what we want to achieve.

A sunnie day

I can;t believe I am still so energetic after sleeping at 2am everynight! Insomnia seems to be improving a lot ever since I started to sleep late.

Today was really a nice day...as I am still procrastinating, I decided to go to the new shopping center near my house--> "Westfield"....I think this was my first time being there after all stores (nearly all) opened again...Its pretty! Last time I went there was with my high school girlfds, an the only thing I remember was the food court.

Sadly I have to admit it IS smaller than Chadstone, i was execting too much from it I think. Regardless of its size, I still got lost like usual. So basically it was my shopping day! I even got some groceries ( salad veggie...yeh..i want to be healthy!..and of course some SHAPES la <3>
Come and visit me ppl! I will take u there and we can do shopping LOL...but before that, let me work more first la...$_$

Took me only an hour or so to bump around and I went home....NO, if you want to ask if I 'd studied after that.no i didnt!...I was playing with my ipod for so long...even tho there's NOTHING to play in it....maybe thats another excuse for me not to open any books >.<
Oh no Iam so dead for exam this time seriously, never been so slack....

And now I m too tired to study... so...music time!

P.S.: To those dearest friends who had been staning by and being there for me, those who truly care for me; you know who you are, thanks a lot =] I am very glad I got to know all of you.

思。

紫袖紅弦明月中，
自彈自感闇低容，
弦凝指咽聲停處，
別有深情一萬重。

-<<夜箏>> 唐‧白居易


Can't sleep.

Finally woke up at 6am...I am surprised I only slept for 4 hours yet I am still alive.

一个人的安静，一个人的寂寞。
恍惚有太多的要去慢慢习惯。

Time to study hard.
Or at least keep myself busy.

可惜不是你 - 梁静茹

这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段 我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影

努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏笔
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

乱。

很烦Y。。。
Firstly I am wrong in what I thought might be right...
Secondly I don't know what is wrong or right...
我到底想要些什么？
All tangled...
有一种很迷失的感觉。
突然很想哭。
该怎么办？

为什么人都是喜欢逃避自己不想去面对的人，事，和感觉呢？
是错了吗？

A day for sleeping in,,,

Haven't been sleeping well lately, I suppose yesterday night/this morning was an execption...I slept at 2ish and woke up at 12 noon! I could finally sleep once I fell down my bed! I've tried aromatherapy, like for 2 days; but i doubt it really worked on me...It was pretty though, especially the tender candle light... and I begin to like the smell of Lavender ( still not as much as Rose and Jasmine).


Its said that "the oil molecules stimulate scent receptors in the brain that, in turn, trigger a response in the part of the brain that influences heart rate, blood pressure, breathing, memory, stress levels, and hormone balance. "..ok..but i thought it was the scent that stimulate the hair cells/olfactory cilia which contains receptors in the nose and hence lead to these action potentials firing and messages are sent to the brain...and then...hmm....i duno...seems liek I really gota study harder. Haven't even opened my books yet. ANYWAY, i guess its a "placebo" to some extend.

Tomorrow is my Pharmacy Practise Laboraaatory EXAM!!! o.0....NO!!! I haven;t study yet...i still have tonight to browse through, but i think it should be ok =]