Wisdom teeth?

I've always said I am not smart enough to have wisdom teeth!
Now I would say I am not smart enough for the teeth to grow painlessly and normally...

My tooth is hurting...or maybe its my gum...I can't tell anymore =S

Yeah and I skipped my last lecture...way too cold in the lecture hall and there's no way I could stand it!

Can't they just fix the stupid air con?
Basically when it is hot outside it would be bloody freezing in the lecture...
When it is icy cold outside then it would be a boiling inside the hall...
Too extreme!

Gota catch up on the Protein lecture that I missed tonight!
So sleepy already~!
Plus I never seem to understand anything about the protein lectures...

I want my weekend!
Seems like it is the only thing I am looking forward to!

Sunshine after the rain

I have to admit I am someone who thinks a lot...*in a bad way*

..and finally when I couln't take all little annoying 'troubles' around me...
they piled up...and eventually...It was suffocating.

I re-read my personal diary, and started to realised it was simply me, myself, who is worrying too much. Everything wasnt as bad as I had thought; and yes I over-reacted in everything.

I had always tried to be that best daughter in the family, that best student in class...tried to be the best. Was it the expectation from others? or from myself? I didn;t know.

I realise what they want me to be, and who i really am..is just, a different person.

I am sorry , mum and dad; I am still that very stubborn daughter with bad temper who cries all the time. I've tried to be that traditional-chinese-good-manner-lady-ladish-daughter you guys wanted me to be; yet i couldn't help jumping around like an idiot or crying my head off sometimes....well, most of the time. But that is who I really am.
I am sorry, sis; I am still learning how to be a good elder sister who knows the best for you and talks to you in an non-aggresive manner. But I am learning, to be patient and caring; just give me some more time.
I am sorry, teachers; I am not your top student who you had always thought i am. But I always give my best shot and I never regret for no studying harder.
I am sorry, aunt and uncle; I know you guys worry about me especially when I am home late...I really tried and I am stll trying very hard not to cause any worries and troubles. But sometimes I just want a little getaway. I believe I am old enough to know what I am doing.

It is time for me to make some decisions for myself now.
I don't want to be the best,
but myself.
I am not perfect, i am not the top.
So, just get over it.

What do I have now?
-I have my family who are still willing to support me and my study.
-I am in Pharmacy...even though it is such a tough course...I realise a part of me is really enjoying it. Working with costomers and patients...youngs and olds...It is just such a big reward when they say "Oh hey! you're working today! how are you? Thanks so much for your help... hope you have a nice day too...see you next time!...take care...", with that genuine smile. And that old man coming in on Sunday...saying "young lady you have a beautiful smile"...He, and all of them, really brighten up my days, even when it is a depressing day for me deep down.
-I have my club...still can't believe it all started with just a joke...but from handing in the applications in starting a new club...to our first meeting...first rehearsals...first performance...to now 2009, everyone is working so hard and are so committed. I am so proud, of everyone and so thankful, that M@P had really taken off beautifully.
-I have my good girlfriends whom i've met since high school...and uni...and even work...that are always willing to hang out with me, muck around about hot and cute guys... relationships... uni...work...gossips...most importantly, they are caring and always happy to give me this super mega warm hug whenever I need.
-I have my cool guy-buddies who always try their best to cheer me up when I am down, even when I normally spend most of my time mucking around, teasing them and being evil....those who laid their trust on me and share their problems with me...I really appreciate it.
-And of course, I have a stable and sweet relationship which I have no reason to have doubts in. A person who i can always turn to...who is always here for me...who really cares for me and know how to guide me back on track. Our memories had been beautiful, and I am sure there are lot more to come. He is everything I've ever wanted. And I should stop worrying and having so much doubt on myself which had been driving me nuts. Back to basics. Faith.

My life is not perfect, nor me.
But think about it, I have eveything I've ever dreamt of. My course, my career, my friends and my relationship.
Why would I ask for more?
I am content.
Seriously.

It had always been me, and myself...
Problems that I can only solve by myself.
Time to really step out of my own circle and think from the outside.
Clear my mind...and save some space for something more practical, instead of spending my time stressing, worrying and over-thinking...

Serotonin reuptake inhibitos are definitely not something I need now.
If it was two days ago, I would be so desperated for it.
But...I've found my own happiness, I've always have it...
I have the person I need.
I have everything I need in my life.
And I am thankful, very thankful indeed.

There are so much more to learn in life...
let me take one step at a time.

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life you have a thousand reaons to smile"

'Get to know yourself better'

Here's some interesting results from a 'personalities test'
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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eh....interesting...=]
Kinda true but ...thats is not what i am most afraid of....

Yeh Friday !! =]

-

I think i....am lost

Stuffing runny nose...
Still on Pseudoephedrine + Chlorpheniramine...
Still causing drowiness...

Still can't focus in lecture...
I have no idea what they are on about...
catching up catching up...
the only thing that i am glad is,,,
there's something called "Lectopia"

Don't want to talk about food...
I hate diet, I could never be on a diet...
but now it just comes naturally -.-"

Toothache...
I really should have visited the dentist when I was back in china...
another reason why I don;t seem to be attracted to food.

They are out there fighting about the phone bill again...

I want to get away from all these...

Study VS Beach

2nd week of uni...
I've had enough...
Trying to catch up on lectures,
but they just make me sleepy and tired...

Loss of appetite for i-duno-how-many-days,
Cold for 3 days...
Current medications include: Paracetamol, Chlorpheniramine, Pseudoephedrine ( alternatively Phenylephrine)
Common Side effects experiencing: Chlorpheniramine(sedating antihistamine)-drowiness *yawn*

Maybe they should have an ancillary label number 1b: This medicine may cause drowsiness and may increase boredom in lectures. If affected, do not study or think; just sleep your head off.

I want my weekend ...

Stuff yet to be done:
1>catch up on i-duno-wt-it-is-all-about lecture PAC 2171...Say hello to GPCR and cAMP...RTKs and Ras....
2>catch up on M@P bbq
3>catch up on i-duno-what lectures
4>iron my shirt if i remember..or maybe i will iron it when i want to wear it...
5>Get a 250GB harddrive that can plug diretly into my brain so i don't need to worry about memorising things =S
6>fix myself if i remember

Went to St kilda with my vcp girls today!
Finally could get away from study for a while...
Summer is gone already right?
So no more tanning for me!

New start...or back to routine?

It has been a while since I last updated my blog.

Holiday had been okok...back to parents, went to Europe for trip...I had been longing to come back to Melbourne...and here i am, with 2nd year Pharmacy started...

First day of uni, 830am lecture...it was too tiring...

Everything seems to be...slightly different...
Wasn't a really great feeling,
so not used to it...

From holiday back to uni...
From sleeping in everyday to waking up at 6am...
From spending time mucking around and not worrying about work, to now with all these work staring to stack up....

I miss holiday...every bits and pieces of it....

I am not ready for it yet,
if..and only if...i have more time...

Last day in Melbourne

So, yes, my flight is tomorrow morning at 10:40am.

After procrastinating for days...and weeks...I am FINALLY packing, on the last day! I am feeling tired and lazy, don't even feel very excited at all =S

After trying to keep myself busy for weeks in melbourne, I can finally get outa here where all (*most*) of my friends are away! By the time I come back, it would be when Uni starts! Time is going to fly again, I think. I would rather go to uni and see all my friends, instead of having a boring holiday.... but maybe when uni starts, with all the assignments and exams, I would be desperated for holidays again.

RIght now I aM SUPER ANNOYED...this construction guy is OUTSIDE MY WINDOW hitting the walls with his tools...He really freaked me out just now, but then I decided to pull my curtain down...now its just annoying with the sound.

Finally tidy my room, put away things and dust off dust, even tho I know by the time I come back again it would be dusty anyway. Seal the perfume shelves, put away my makeupz, cleaned the bin and vases, turn the calender to feb..suddenly the room looks so empty.

Lets hope this is going to be a good trip.

Miss you all!

"I've done 60 of the 122 stupidest things" ---Re: Mel's blog

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 0

Level 2
( X) Are / Been In Love – how is this stupid??
( X) Dumped Someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 5

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris – Going to…SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS STUPID?!
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi - why is eating sushi stupid?? *I agree with Mel!*
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 7

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
( ) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By- I love to do it!
( ) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 9

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
( ) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 11

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 14

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 15

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 17

Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 18

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night – Does it count if we had 4 people?
( ) Danced in the moonlight – Aww..sweet! Would be a great thing to try!
SO FAR : 18

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 22

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 24

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 29

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain – Hmm, interesting.
SO FAR: 30

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus - when I was young...
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About - =] *HEY what game is this?! Why is this stupid?! It seems that everything is stupid according to this game…
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 33

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
(x) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 37

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 38

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish (Accidentally!)
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 41

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 43

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone – ALWAYS!
SO FAR: 45

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts – yeh I do sometimes…T^T
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 46

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on – close…
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone – close…
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 48

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly - and it died...-.-"
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried – ALWAYS!! LOL
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed - depends on the reason I cried, but yeh it happened before.
SO FAR: 51

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name – erm..always..
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
( ) Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 55

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster – only once…
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 56

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 60

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 60

Conclusion: "I've done 60 of the 122 stupidest things"

What? I still don't get why they are stupid?

Happy *belated* New YEAR!

Its 2009.

A brand new year, a brand new start.

Won't linger in the past...but I am thankful though.
It had lead me to who I am, and had brought so many important people and things into my life now. Time can pass, but memories will be there always. Learning from the past and I won't make the same mistakes again. Time is not going to wait for you. Take the chance, follow your heart. That's what I've learnt. And I know right now, I can look back with a smile.

Treasure the present. Search for happiness.
Nothing is more important than treasuring everything and everyone in your life right now.
"You only have one life to live, so live it fully."

Future...hmmz, i have my plans.
It is still a mystery but at least I know where I am heading to.

But right now, right here....
My plan is to Get-Well-Soon...
This is a terrible start to a new year -.-"
I felt funny when patients coming in asking for cold anf flu tablets..."yeh...i know exactly how you feel"
I nearly lost the concept of "Professionalism" at work today...
I was impatient, I wasn't paying attention to the details, I couldn't speak mandarin and communicate properly...I simply have no idea what i did.

OMG....I found that piece of korean music that I used to love.
Never understood what the lyric means. Now I do.
Just saw the video with english subtitle on youtube....
...it's so sad =[

"Because I'm A Girl"
---by KISS

W.O.R.K.

After working 2 concsecutive days, with 7 hours each day...I am feeling tired.

Yesterday wasn't bad, Boxing Day mah~ public holiay and most people went shopping.

But today was nuts. I've always knew Saturday is a busy day, but it was just crazy today. Customers all came into the shop in the LAST hour at 4ish, and I was the only staff on the sales floor ( There was another staff at the register)... With heaps of new scripts coming in, those that were waiting to pick up their medications were getting impatient. They complained about the long waiting time, and was asking rudely "why does the phrmacist have to re-check it again when she has done it?!"...Dude, this is for your own safety reason =S

Been having retarded nose for the whole day!!! and my feet hurt. Plus I stupidly cut my finger with PAPER ....and..oh yeh =S....and I bang my hand on the register which gave me a nice cut and bruise. What is going on with me today -.-"

Another 5 hours tomorrow.
Then Tuesday 30th Dec from 10-5pm again
New Year Day: 10-5pm
Following Friday 2nd Jan:5-9pm
Saturday 3rd Jan: 10-3pm
Sundy 4th Jan:10-2pm
Friday 9th Jan: 5-9pm
Saturday 10th Jan/ last shift before I leave Melb: 10-3pm

nice timetable...at least I am keepng myself busy, let along i am half dead by now...

Merry Christmas!

Finally got to open all my presents!!! My patience seems to be better than I thought…*maybe?*

Didn’t really celebrate this year but it was more like hanging out with my friend and had lunch in her house. Dumplings and fried noodles! And nope, I didn’t made them =P Yeh anyone that know “MLCC” knows that she is hopeless in cooking…


Lol, this random grumpy old lady with funny purplish-pink hair appeared on TV for no reasons!

We watched a movie in the house and we went out to a park for a walk. I didn’t know it was so close to IKEA! See, this place is so pretty and peaceful…


OHH~ and this is Andi's little mouse...so cute =] I was too scared to hold her tho >.<

After burning off some of our energy, we decided to give ourselves a small reward! Yes! Ice cream :D plus one of my FAVOURITE snacks - CHESTNUTS >3<

hmmz…ladies in our group in vcp, we all know how much yoyo loves Super Junior-one of the member, KI (Potassium Iodide or Kang-In<>, depending how well you understand it =P )…so yup, we watched the 1st Asia concert dvd. Great dancers and singers!
Tram back to Boxhill and caught my bus back to East Donny, then pick up my car n drove to Bev's house for yummy Tiramisu...I should learn too~ then by the time I got home I was so full.

I am not looking forward for the coming weekend at all...Working tomorrow from 10-5pm...then Saturday from 10-5pm ( that will be SO busy! I can predict!)...Sunday from 10-3pm...then omg Tuesday from 10-5pm again...

Just want time to pass faster! Now I want to get out of Melboure.

> 1 days!!!

Its Christmas Eve today.

Ever since I was young I deem Christmas as the happiest festival of the year. Those good old times…when we had parties in school, when we had school play, when we swapped presents, when we sang Christmas carol; it seemed that the air is full of joy of Christmas.
But now, for the first year ever; I am feeling so different.

Coming all the way to study…Being alone in Melbourne…It had always been a path that is set for me since I was young. It had always been my parent’s plan. Yes, I am thankful and happy about the decision. And the price which I have to pay that is, yes, being alone here; learning to be strong and independent. Good or bad? Depends on how you look at it =] I would say I am pretty happy to be here with freedom; let alone I used to lie on bed everytime I arrive Melbourne from Macau , “Why am I here?”. But now it seems that I’ve found something that I truly look forward to in Melbourne, maybe not now yet…but I am sure this time when I return to Melbourne in 2 months time, I would feel different. Positively.

Even though on any ‘special days/festivals’ I tend to feel a bit empty…I mean, looking back into the memories, the times I had with my family and friends, the way we celebrated each festival, whether they are chinese or western…There were so much fun. And now it seems that those times won’t come back anymore.

Memories…

Moving on to merrier things!

I went for my pharmacy's Christmas Eve breakfast at 8am today! omg had such a bad sleep ( was planning to sleep at 11pm but my mum called my twice after 11:30pm to place their 'order' of what tey want me to buy -.-") but I am glad I got my energy back thro my 2 hour afternoon nap =P Apparently everyone that went got their pressie besides ME...why? becoz, my 'secret santa' were LATE...so I will onyl ot my pressie on Boxing Day when I go back for work~ After that I drove to The Pines and got the 1o packs of chocolate for my mum...then I took the bus and headed to Boxhill again to get those Creams for my relatives (15boxes!)...then back to Westfield AGAIN, to get a Parker Pen for my dad as present...now I basically finished all th shopping for overseas! and I am 101% BROKE!

Yes its Christmas tomorrow…or maybe I would say, in a few hours’ time! That one and only present which I was told NOT to open till Christmas morning…I can finally open it SOON =] I can’t believe I didn’t cheat and open it earlier -.-” I mean, I opened all my presents and then wrapped them back, so I will reopen them again on Christmas~ yeh but EXCEPT for that one and only present!
And tomorrow I will go to my friend’s house. At least I have a friend that can spend Christmas with me! Thanks yoyo~

Merry Christmas my friends! No matter where you are now, enjoy yourself and I wish that it would be an awesome Christmas for you all!

2 more days...

Melbourne always has funny weather...It was bloody 35 yesterday and today it dropped back to comfy 21 =] I would say this weather is awesome! At least I won't feel annoyed,retarded and tired without air-con...

Been to Westfield two days in a row...Yesterday I did so much shopping. Right if you want to ask whay dont; I get my shopping done on Boxing Day, I am 'pleased' to announce that I am working 10am-5pm on 26th Dec...well, I don't mind working on that day anyway..It's public holiday and the pharmacy shouldn;t be busy.

So I brought SO MANY stuff....got a lot for mum, dad, sister and other relatives....and yes, my parent's friends too =S

"Buy 15 boxes of chocolate back, arh Ting ( my cantonese name)...dont; bring anythig clothes back..so you will have more space in you luggage....then u can fit all teh chocolates and lollies..." ....-.-" oh mum....you might not realise that 3 packs of 1kg Nougat lollies are occupying HALF of my luggage already! another 15 boxes of chocolate...-.-" oh yeh...I am basically buying stuff for my mum n dad so they can give to THEIR friends and most IMPORTANTLY, i dont; get my $$ back...

that's why I am broke.

So far I am spending more than i earn ( for December)

My budgeted revenue <>

Hence, it is a NET LOSS...

* oh my beloved accounting skills... >3<*

Today I met up with my high school friends at Westfield and we had coffee n cake.

Ohh...Look what I;ve got!!! yeh...a super mage cute giraffe neck pillow.

P.S: Yuki....where are my fotos with this cute giraffe? Pls send them to me =]

AND yes, this stuff is going to be one of my hand-carry and YES i will bring it to China..then to Macau...then to HK..then to europe..then back HK...then back Macau..then back China...then back Melbourne! At least it will keep my neck in place during my flights and travel. Hm...lets hope mum n dad won't kill me when they see me cuddling it, n walking out of the airport...."Grow up! You are nearly 20!!" ..I bet they will say that!...nope..i dont; see what's wrong with cute stuff like soft toys and pillows!

4 more days...

It’s a sunny and hot day after all…

And seems that I haven’t been working for so long! Today I was up dispensary with Larry…It was so busy. Wasn’t too bad, it’s manageable =] After that I shopped in my pharmacy for stuff like moisturizing creams for mum and dad…yeh everyone, I am leaving *only* on 12th January, 09. I wish I had booked earlier.

Stayed at home afterwards and finished off my Korean drama “Behind the White Tower”. It is one of the few *very few* dramas I’ve watched that is NOT a love story. It is more a drama about doctors in hospital trying to get into the positions they want. Pride, Fame, Money…And because of that, patients care is no longer the first priority as health care professionals. Very pathetic. I spend around 4 days to finish all 20 episodes. Was great coz I got something to entertain myself =] Plus, I still have a few interesting dramas/TV shows in my hard drive waiting for me to finish!

Don’t care la…I need new glasses anyway, wont; make a difference by now =P

4 more days till Christmas….
I am never very patient…and I am told not to open the presents till Christmas morning (Traditionally its Boxing Day morning right=P shuuushh =P I don’t want to wait one more day!)…I am so tempted to pull off the sticky tapes! I would be honest and say this is one of the biggest tests on my patience so far. Especially when that golden bag is right infront of you!!! And on it there were handwritings “Do not open until Christmas morning”…BACK AND FRONT!!!

So tempted…

Self control….

Finally...

Finally...a time that i wished i would never need to face...had come...I've always knew I am bad at handling goodbyes...but never knew I am that awful this time.

When you really love something or someone, you might grab it a little too tight...beacuse you don't want to let it go. In this holiday, I think I did, pushed it a bit too hard. Even though you do understand what you should do and what to expect, sometimes you could be easily blinded by your own thoughts. But I am glad it all worked out in the end. The most important thing is that we know what we want, and we know there is a balance point for everything. It is not like when you don't see each other as often, everything will change. If it is a true feeling, then it won't collapse that easily. I've always believe in it.

It is always a blessing to have someone who understands you and knowing what you want and need...knowing how to work together and have faith. I am feelng lucky, very contented and I am thankful...

So let these months be a little test...which is going to make us stronger... its not goodbye.