White Horse

"I had so many dreams...About you and me...Happy endings...Now I know; I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale..I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,Lead her up the stairwell...This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,I was a dreamer before you went and let me down...Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around"

------Taylor Swift/ 'White Horse'

No, I am not depressed or what...It's just that this song is so...sad...but meaningful. I can imagine how painful that is...I don't know why, but this song really touches my heart. Everything i listen to it, I say " Oh, please, i don't want to use this song at all "

Maybe its because ever since I was young..I love fairy tales..."Once upon a time....and they live happily ever after"...The prince will always find the princess ....then they will fall in love and move into tha castle... and in the end live happily forever, with their magical animals.

When I grow up I start to realise, life is not a fairytale. Relationships don't always have happy endings. Or maybe the two person just aren't meant for each other?

I feel lucky, I really do. But sometimes, I am so scared. The more important a person is to you, the more scared you are to lose that person, isn't it true? I am scared that words can be so fragile; and promises? I never ask for any promises...sometimes i like it this way, but sometimes...

I've never thought I am someone who is that insecured...I've never really know what jealousy feels like until I actually felt it...It was sour.

"Perfect" is an adjective. How would you define it?

To me, this is perfect. Even though lately I had been terribly emotional, terribly unreasonable....even though it had been feeling a bit bumpy lately... I know, there is nowhere in this world i'd rather be in.

I feel content.

...this is not perfect, yet it is. Nothing is perfect. it only depends how you yourself define it.

I've learnt to have faith and trust.

So many people walk passed you in your life, and out of that hundred millions of people...that one person stands out of the crowd and catches your eyes and captures your heart. I do believe in destiny now.

"Marry Me?"

On tram 109 today, that's what I saw when I looked out of the window.

Up the clear blue sky, it was written " marry me?"

This is one of the sweetest ( and one of the most expensive I'd say ) proposal I've ever seen!

Candle light dinner, flowers, then ring...thats like the most classical proposal in history! C'on guys! Need to be more creative!Its not that I am saying all guys should proposal up the sky, spending a fortune etc.. Material wealth doesn't come first, it never does...but try make that one of the most unforgetable and sweetest moment in you and your partner's life! make it special and unique...and as long as it comes from the heart, thats whats the most important.

I wonder if he's made it? I was talking to my friend and we were saying, the engagment ring must be huge...OR maybe he's spent all his money getting his proposal up the sky...no more ring =P

But either way, I still think she is a lucky girl. Having someone who is telling the whole world how much he loves her. I wish them both all the best!

and of course, congratulations!

Friday tomorrow!! yeah! and today's Commuication tutorial was SO FUN...I had to act as an non-engish-speaking-girl who has low BP and is about to faint and has no idea what my medication is...."You...chinese?...me..no speak..english"....can;t wait till the next tute! LOL

P.S.: I still think I am the luckiest girl...=]

Finally...

Finally...a time that i wished i would never need to face...had come...I've always knew I am bad at handling goodbyes...but never knew I am that awful this time.

When you really love something or someone, you might grab it a little too tight...beacuse you don't want to let it go. In this holiday, I think I did, pushed it a bit too hard. Even though you do understand what you should do and what to expect, sometimes you could be easily blinded by your own thoughts. But I am glad it all worked out in the end. The most important thing is that we know what we want, and we know there is a balance point for everything. It is not like when you don't see each other as often, everything will change. If it is a true feeling, then it won't collapse that easily. I've always believe in it.

It is always a blessing to have someone who understands you and knowing what you want and need...knowing how to work together and have faith. I am feelng lucky, very contented and I am thankful...

So let these months be a little test...which is going to make us stronger... its not goodbye.

A moment of deep thoughts.

Ohh, sorry guys AND GIRLS ( for those girls that are so pick and not allowing me to use 'guys'...), I haven't update my blog for two days or so...Not that I am that very busy, but I am just a bit lazy...besides, I had been workin quite a lot again. 7 hours yesterday, mann ! Glad it wasn;t as bad as last week!

My cousin from HK is back to Melbourne for a week! He is always the cousin I am closest to since I was young. He has great personalities. He used to teach me piano, till I cried...(not that he made me cry, but i was practising on my own till I was so tired that I cried -.- ); but he never plays now, guess coz he only had a few lessons. He used to sketch me, till I was so tired..."Don' move, its nearly done"....I really don't konw how much that picture looks like me=P But I guess since we are both growing up now, it's slightly different already. Afterall, I am still glad he comes back.

What makes him admirable is that he's engaged! to his very nice and caring fiancee now! They had been in a long run relationship for...8 years? ( i am takin a guess but I am sure it was since ages ago) Was really happy when i heard that news! Happy for them, finlly found their soulmate that they are going to spend the rest of their lives with. Another new journey ahead! Can't wait to attend their wedding!

Follow your feeling, believe in your heart and yourself! and I am sure one day we will all find that "special one". Someone who cares and loves you for who you are, and is willing to respct every aspect of your life; understands your need and provides you the feeling of security. Do not set yourself a "goal" ---a dream gf/bf, because you will restrict yourself eventually and miss out alot in your lives.
Learn from the past but never linger there; treasure the present, it is a gift ; look into the future with faith and hope, it is better that you think.
Learn to look at the same thing with different angle and you will find nothing is a total disaster. Step out of the little world of your own,and you will found there are so much around you that are beautiful, and yet you never seem to realise.
Don't take things for granted, because you will never know when they're all gone. And then you will realise how much it meant too u, when its already too late.
Never give up yourself; Nothing is really over yet unless you stop giving yourself a chance and stop trying.
Take a risk; life is too short do things that you KNOW you will regret for. But at least you've did your best when you are willing to give yourse a chance, and you have nothing to lose; and that you should be proud of yourself.
Follow your dream and work hard for what you want to achieve;Hard work will definitely be rewarded; the rest is to believe in yourself.
Have faith in your heart and people aroudn you; have hope for the futue that things will be better; and a peaceful soul to allow you to have a clear mind and find out what you really want in life.

No matter how much I want to stay like a kid, now I have to step out to the society as an adult.
I've learnt, and I grew from the past.
And now I believe tomorrow will be a better day.

So, no matter you are my dearest friends or jus visitors to this blog that we never met; believe in yourself. You are worth more than you think and we all have the ability to achieve what we want to achieve.