Last one!!

Wee....just finished work >.<" Wasn't such a great Sunday shift after all but I am glad it is over.




Just feeling taking random photos...so here are two : My favorite corner in my room...

Tomorrow at this time i will be half way doing my 2151 exam paper in Caufield...
funny feeling

Now before I go to study...I feel like painting my nails...orange =] "Hot Hot Mango"

It will be over soon....work hard for another day....

"Marry Me?"

On tram 109 today, that's what I saw when I looked out of the window.

Up the clear blue sky, it was written " marry me?"

This is one of the sweetest ( and one of the most expensive I'd say ) proposal I've ever seen!

Candle light dinner, flowers, then ring...thats like the most classical proposal in history! C'on guys! Need to be more creative!Its not that I am saying all guys should proposal up the sky, spending a fortune etc.. Material wealth doesn't come first, it never does...but try make that one of the most unforgetable and sweetest moment in you and your partner's life! make it special and unique...and as long as it comes from the heart, thats whats the most important.

I wonder if he's made it? I was talking to my friend and we were saying, the engagment ring must be huge...OR maybe he's spent all his money getting his proposal up the sky...no more ring =P

But either way, I still think she is a lucky girl. Having someone who is telling the whole world how much he loves her. I wish them both all the best!

and of course, congratulations!

Friday tomorrow!! yeah! and today's Commuication tutorial was SO FUN...I had to act as an non-engish-speaking-girl who has low BP and is about to faint and has no idea what my medication is...."You...chinese?...me..no speak..english"....can;t wait till the next tute! LOL

P.S.: I still think I am the luckiest girl...=]

Wisdom teeth?

I've always said I am not smart enough to have wisdom teeth!
Now I would say I am not smart enough for the teeth to grow painlessly and normally...

My tooth is hurting...or maybe its my gum...I can't tell anymore =S

Yeah and I skipped my last lecture...way too cold in the lecture hall and there's no way I could stand it!

Can't they just fix the stupid air con?
Basically when it is hot outside it would be bloody freezing in the lecture...
When it is icy cold outside then it would be a boiling inside the hall...
Too extreme!

Gota catch up on the Protein lecture that I missed tonight!
So sleepy already~!
Plus I never seem to understand anything about the protein lectures...

I want my weekend!
Seems like it is the only thing I am looking forward to!

Sunshine after the rain

I have to admit I am someone who thinks a lot...*in a bad way*

..and finally when I couln't take all little annoying 'troubles' around me...
they piled up...and eventually...It was suffocating.

I re-read my personal diary, and started to realised it was simply me, myself, who is worrying too much. Everything wasnt as bad as I had thought; and yes I over-reacted in everything.

I had always tried to be that best daughter in the family, that best student in class...tried to be the best. Was it the expectation from others? or from myself? I didn;t know.

I realise what they want me to be, and who i really am..is just, a different person.

I am sorry , mum and dad; I am still that very stubborn daughter with bad temper who cries all the time. I've tried to be that traditional-chinese-good-manner-lady-ladish-daughter you guys wanted me to be; yet i couldn't help jumping around like an idiot or crying my head off sometimes....well, most of the time. But that is who I really am.
I am sorry, sis; I am still learning how to be a good elder sister who knows the best for you and talks to you in an non-aggresive manner. But I am learning, to be patient and caring; just give me some more time.
I am sorry, teachers; I am not your top student who you had always thought i am. But I always give my best shot and I never regret for no studying harder.
I am sorry, aunt and uncle; I know you guys worry about me especially when I am home late...I really tried and I am stll trying very hard not to cause any worries and troubles. But sometimes I just want a little getaway. I believe I am old enough to know what I am doing.

It is time for me to make some decisions for myself now.
I don't want to be the best,
but myself.
I am not perfect, i am not the top.
So, just get over it.

What do I have now?
-I have my family who are still willing to support me and my study.
-I am in Pharmacy...even though it is such a tough course...I realise a part of me is really enjoying it. Working with costomers and patients...youngs and olds...It is just such a big reward when they say "Oh hey! you're working today! how are you? Thanks so much for your help... hope you have a nice day too...see you next time!...take care...", with that genuine smile. And that old man coming in on Sunday...saying "young lady you have a beautiful smile"...He, and all of them, really brighten up my days, even when it is a depressing day for me deep down.
-I have my club...still can't believe it all started with just a joke...but from handing in the applications in starting a new club...to our first meeting...first rehearsals...first performance...to now 2009, everyone is working so hard and are so committed. I am so proud, of everyone and so thankful, that M@P had really taken off beautifully.
-I have my good girlfriends whom i've met since high school...and uni...and even work...that are always willing to hang out with me, muck around about hot and cute guys... relationships... uni...work...gossips...most importantly, they are caring and always happy to give me this super mega warm hug whenever I need.
-I have my cool guy-buddies who always try their best to cheer me up when I am down, even when I normally spend most of my time mucking around, teasing them and being evil....those who laid their trust on me and share their problems with me...I really appreciate it.
-And of course, I have a stable and sweet relationship which I have no reason to have doubts in. A person who i can always turn to...who is always here for me...who really cares for me and know how to guide me back on track. Our memories had been beautiful, and I am sure there are lot more to come. He is everything I've ever wanted. And I should stop worrying and having so much doubt on myself which had been driving me nuts. Back to basics. Faith.

My life is not perfect, nor me.
But think about it, I have eveything I've ever dreamt of. My course, my career, my friends and my relationship.
Why would I ask for more?
I am content.
Seriously.

It had always been me, and myself...
Problems that I can only solve by myself.
Time to really step out of my own circle and think from the outside.
Clear my mind...and save some space for something more practical, instead of spending my time stressing, worrying and over-thinking...

Serotonin reuptake inhibitos are definitely not something I need now.
If it was two days ago, I would be so desperated for it.
But...I've found my own happiness, I've always have it...
I have the person I need.
I have everything I need in my life.
And I am thankful, very thankful indeed.

There are so much more to learn in life...
let me take one step at a time.

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
show life you have a thousand reaons to smile"

'Get to know yourself better'

Here's some interesting results from a 'personalities test'
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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eh....interesting...=]
Kinda true but ...thats is not what i am most afraid of....

Yeh Friday !! =]

-

I think i....am lost

Stuffing runny nose...
Still on Pseudoephedrine + Chlorpheniramine...
Still causing drowiness...

Still can't focus in lecture...
I have no idea what they are on about...
catching up catching up...
the only thing that i am glad is,,,
there's something called "Lectopia"

Don't want to talk about food...
I hate diet, I could never be on a diet...
but now it just comes naturally -.-"

Toothache...
I really should have visited the dentist when I was back in china...
another reason why I don;t seem to be attracted to food.

They are out there fighting about the phone bill again...

I want to get away from all these...

"I've done 60 of the 122 stupidest things" ---Re: Mel's blog

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 0

Level 2
( X) Are / Been In Love – how is this stupid??
( X) Dumped Someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 5

Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris – Going to…SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS STUPID?!
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi - why is eating sushi stupid?? *I agree with Mel!*
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 7

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
( ) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By- I love to do it!
( ) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 9

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
( ) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 11

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 14

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 15

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 17

Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 18

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night – Does it count if we had 4 people?
( ) Danced in the moonlight – Aww..sweet! Would be a great thing to try!
SO FAR : 18

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 22

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 24

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 29

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain – Hmm, interesting.
SO FAR: 30

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus - when I was young...
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About - =] *HEY what game is this?! Why is this stupid?! It seems that everything is stupid according to this game…
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 33

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
(x) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 37

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 38

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish (Accidentally!)
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 41

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 43

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone – ALWAYS!
SO FAR: 45

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts – yeh I do sometimes…T^T
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 46

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on – close…
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone – close…
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 48

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly - and it died...-.-"
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried – ALWAYS!! LOL
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed - depends on the reason I cried, but yeh it happened before.
SO FAR: 51

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name – erm..always..
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
( ) Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 55

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster – only once…
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 56

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 60

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 60

Conclusion: "I've done 60 of the 122 stupidest things"

What? I still don't get why they are stupid?

Its gona be friday again

Week by week, day by day...time is flying away.

Its mid December already.

Sometimes when I am alone, I really wish time can pass more quickly. Ths holiday is too long.

My eyes are tired but I dont; want to sleep....

Friday...working again...

The bitter and the sweet

I am just feeling blue.....grey....

Terrible actually.

I just want this storm to be over soon...
I want to see the sunshine and rainbow after that.

Its a matter of time,
and I have plenty of that.
If you are willing put in a bit of patience;
and I know you are.

No matter what happen,
nothing will change.

Trust me,
it will be ok oneday.

I will never give up.

Whatever we are going through now,
or whatever we will go through;
would bring us closer to each other,
and make us stronger than how we are now.

Have faith.

87 ways to know you're a Chinese....

1. You unwrap Christmas gifts very carefully, so you can save and reuse the wrapping (and especially those bows) next year.
2. You only buy Christmas cards after Christmas, when they are 50% off. (NEVER!)
3. When there is a sale on toilet paper, you buy 100 rolls and store them in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has moved out.(I guess that's what my relatves do!!! LOLz)
4. You have a vinyl table cloth on your kitchen table.
5. Your stove is covered with aluminum foil.
6. Your kitchen has a sticky film of grease over it.
7. You have stuff in the freezer since the beginning of time.
8. You use the dishwasher as a dish rack.
9. You have never used your dishwasher.
10. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times.
11. You boil water and put it in the refrigerator.(yeh, when in hot days)
12. You eat all meals in the kitchen.
13. You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers.
14. You use grocery bags to hold garbage.
15. You always leave your shoes at the door.
16. You have a piano in your living room.(TRUE!!! and a GuZheng and guitar in my bedroom!)
17. Your parents know how to launch nasal and throat problems. (of course, my mum is a nurse!)18. You iron your own shirts.
19. You drive a Honda or Acura and are less than 5'8"tall. (..not yet)
20. You pick your teeth at the dinner table (but you cover your mouth).
21. You twirl your pen around your fingers. 2
2. You hate to waste food... a)Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them. b) You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.
23. You don't own any real Tupperware-only a cupboard full of used but carefully rinsed margarine tubs, take out containers, and jam jars.
24. You also use the jam jars as drinking glasses.
25. You've eaten a red bean Popsicle.
26. You bring oranges (or other produce) with you as a gift when you visit people's homes.
27. You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every time you stay in a hotel.
28. The condiments in your fridge are either Price Club sized or come in plastic packets, which you save/steal every time you get take out or go to McDonald's.
29. Ditto paper napkins.
30. You wipe your plate and utensils before you eat every time you go to a restaurant.
31. You carry a stash of your own food whenever you travel (and travel means any car ride longer than 15 minutes)...These travel snacks are always dried. As in not just dried plums, dried ginger, and beef/pork jerky, but dried cuttlefish (SQUID).
32. You own a rice cooker.(of course,how da hell can u cook rice without it?!)
33. You wash your rice at least 2-3 times before cooking it.
34. You spit bones and other food scraps on the table. (That's why you need the vinyl tablecloth).
35. Your parents vehemently refuse the sack of gold coin oranges that their guests just brought just to be courteous.
36. You fight (literally) over who pays the dinner bill.
37. Your dad thinks he can fix everything himself.
38. You majored in something practical like engineering, medicine or law.
39. When you go to a dance party, there are a wall of guys surrounding the dance floor trying to look cool.
40. You live with your parents and you are 30 years old (and they prefer it that way). Or if you're married and 30 years old, you live in the apartment next door to your parents, or at least in the same neighbourhood.(...WHAT? erm...don't think I would do that)
41. You don't use measuring cups. (oh yeah, thats what a pharmacy student do right?)
42. You feel like you've gotten a good deal if you didn't pay tax.
43. You beat eggs with chopsticks.
44. You re-gift cookies or Christmas cake at Christmas (some could even be more than 5yrs old). 45. You have a teacup with a cover on it.
46. You reuse teabags. (ha?no way)
47. You have a drawer full of old pens, most of which don't write anymore.(NO..they are usually in the rubbish bin)
48. If you're under age 20, you own a really expensive walkman. If you're over 20, you own a really expensive camera.(not for me)
49. You always look phone numbers up in the phone book, since calling Information costs 50 cents.(NO..just becoz i can never remember pplz' number)
50. You don't tip more than 10% at a restaurant, and if you do, you tip Chinese delivery guys/waiters more.
51. You're a wok user.
52. You only make long distance calls after 11pm.
53. You know all the waiters at your favorite Chinese restaurants.
54. You like Chinese films in their original undubbed versions a) You love Chinese Martial Arts films. b) Shao Lin and Wu Tang actually mean something to you. (No..not interested!)
55. You have acquired a taste for bittermelon. (oh I HATE IT!)
56. You like congee with thousand year old eggs.
57. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attatched-- it means they're fresh.
58. You never call your parents just to say hi.
59. You always cook too much. (haha i dont; cook)
60. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight. (hm..nope....they don't)
61. Also, if you don't live at home, your parents always want you to come home.
62. Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay inside when you get sick.
63. When you're sick, they also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked goods because they produce hot air (yeet hay in Cantonese).
64. You e-mail your Chinese friends at work, even though you only sit 10 feet apart. (yeh and we chat on msn even when we are one seat away..*wink wink* vcp-mate)
65. Your parents never go to the movies.
66. Your parents send money to their relatives in China.
67. You use a face cloth.
68. Your parents use a clothes line.
69. You're always late. (NO!!! i am never LATE!!!)
70. You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table. 71. You starve yourself before going to all you can eat buffet. (why not =D)
72. You've joined a CD club at least once.
73. You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelry or electronics, computers. (WHERE? WHO?)
74. You never discuss your love life with your parents. (Good point...but i will)
75. Your parents are never happy with your grades!! (oh yeah, they used to say "where's the other marks?!)
76. You save your old Coke bottle glasses even though you're never going to use them again. (oh i really don't iek coke and softdrinks....Boost Juice is better)
77. You own your own meat cleaver and sharpen it.
78. You keep most of your money in a savings account.
79. You own an MJ set and possibly have a room set up in the basement.
80. You know what MJ means. [no, it's not Michael Jackson: It's Mahjong!]
81. You've been on the Love Boat or know someone who has.(what is is??)
82. Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.
83. You say "wei" when answering your cell phone.
84. You are familiar with the term "ai yah...".
85. You know what moon cakes are.
86. You know why this list consists of only "87" reasons.
87. You enclose your remote controls in plastic to keep greasy fingerprints off them.

aja FIGHT!

ok....maybe I should start my physiology today..
it seems that there are just SO much stuf than i duno =S oh no T^T
Stress? nah..i am not....at least not yet.....

Respiratory phyiology! lets start from the beginning... *yawn*..oh no, my neck still hurts!?! arGH...and i still want to sleep......zzZZZ

aww...my intenet died yesterday for the whole day....from 12:30am yesterday till just now...so i had to wake up early to call my internet provider...omg..a night without facebook, cruncyroll and msn was...CRAP!!! so i did other stuff instead..like..digging out my movies in my harddrive and watch them AGAIN =S

Its raining today! hm...the smell of rain...but other than being a bit tired and sleepy, with a sore neck....hm..I actually feel....very....content =]

A day for sleeping in,,,

Haven't been sleeping well lately, I suppose yesterday night/this morning was an execption...I slept at 2ish and woke up at 12 noon! I could finally sleep once I fell down my bed! I've tried aromatherapy, like for 2 days; but i doubt it really worked on me...It was pretty though, especially the tender candle light... and I begin to like the smell of Lavender ( still not as much as Rose and Jasmine).


Its said that "the oil molecules stimulate scent receptors in the brain that, in turn, trigger a response in the part of the brain that influences heart rate, blood pressure, breathing, memory, stress levels, and hormone balance. "..ok..but i thought it was the scent that stimulate the hair cells/olfactory cilia which contains receptors in the nose and hence lead to these action potentials firing and messages are sent to the brain...and then...hmm....i duno...seems liek I really gota study harder. Haven't even opened my books yet. ANYWAY, i guess its a "placebo" to some extend.

Tomorrow is my Pharmacy Practise Laboraaatory EXAM!!! o.0....NO!!! I haven;t study yet...i still have tonight to browse through, but i think it should be ok =]

First Post EVER

YEAH~! after prooo...crastinating on my studies for AGES...i finally did something productive! Yeah, a new blog...HOW DOES THAT SOUND?! so basically I migrated from my MSN space to this Blogspot...ok from now on I am gona stick to it only!!!

Look, I ama very lazy person; especially when it comes to updating my blog....let me check...my last diary entry was EXACTLY one month ago....but I will try to make this blog interesting =]

Today is the last dy of my one-week-so-called-'holiday'. One more week back uni and i will have exams to worry about. To be honest I am not ready AT ALL! but its ok, lets worry about it when its closer =P

Interesting enough, I found a facebook group called '聖羅撒中文部 95年幼稚園同學'...1995..the year i graduated from kindergardenie! uhu~! and I seem to find a lot of those familiar names =] It's a funny feeling finding back your kindie/primary school mates; wonder where thay all are and what they are doing now....You reckon you can find me in the photo? =P I challenge you!

Oh no! Its monday again tomorrow =[... good thing is that I get to see my uni buddies...bad thing is...yeh...I gotta wake up early....

Thanks for reading =] I will catch you up soon!